Superman - Five for Fighting

I feel plenty of stress coming right up. Seems like one way to combat stress is to actually do your tutorials! So I'm off to complete my tutorials. Hope you enjoy today's song, which is Superman by Five for Fighting ;)



Add-on: It's really not easy to continue like this. My systems will break down someday ...

Leadership.

It's hard trying not to be too emo about it, but still ...

How can one feel satisfied if he/she does not get what he/she wants? I'm only hoping for so much, to be a class/CCA leader, is it that hard? Fair enough, I did not get enough votes, but there are other ways in which I can help out to "exhibit" or more appropriately, express my leadership capabilities.

Fine fine, fair enough. But what if in the future, someone asks about my leadership capabilities. So what do I say? Options are:

• I'm just a subject rep, but does that count for anything?
• I'm nothing more than a ordinary member in my CCA. Isn't this worse?

At least in secondary school, I still can say that I'm an ASL. But now?

Of course, if offered the opportunity to lead, I would be more than willing to take up the challenge. But in this case, the opportunities are no longer for me anymore!

Not that I don't want, but I can't get it in the first place!

Now I don't feel just disappointment. I feel ANGER! FRUSTRATION! Boiling blood!

And now I feel downright dejected and depressed (did someone just ditched me?).

But what to do? Shrug it off? Let time fly by?

I'm not too sure ...

Irreplaceable - Beyonce

Here's today's song. Enjoy!



Lyrics to Irreplaceable [Beyonce]
To the left, to the left
To the left, to the left
To the left, to the left

Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet that's my stuff, yes
If I bought it please don't touch

And keep talking that mess, that's fine
But could you walk and talk at the same time?
And it's my name that is on that tag
So remove your bags let me call you a cab

Standing in the front yard telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking about
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact he'll be here in a minute, baby

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

So go ahead and get gone
And call up that chick and see if she's home
Oops, I bet ya thought that I didn't know
What did you think I was putting you out for?

Because you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby you dropped them keys
Hurry up before your taxi leaves

Standing in the front yard telling me
How I am such a fool, talking about
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact he'll be here in a minute, baby

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I'll have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

So since I'm not your everything
How about I'll be nothing, nothing at all to you
Baby I won't shed a tear for you, I won't lose a wink of sleep
'Cause the truth of the matter is replacing you is so easy

To the left, to the left
To the left, to the left
To the left, to the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
To the left, to the left
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact he'll be here in a minute, baby

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking, baby

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact he'll be here in a minute

You could pack all your things, we're finished
(You must not know 'bout me)
'Cause you made your bed, now lay in it
(You must not know 'bout me)
I can have another you by tomorrow
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

World Behind My Wall - Tokio Hotel

Here's today's song. Hope you like it!


Lyrics to World Behind My Wall [Tokio Hotel]
It's raining today
The blinds are shut, it's always the same
I tried all the games that they play
But they made me insane

Life on TV
It's random, it means nothing to me
I'm writing down what I cannot see
Wanna wake up in a dream

Whoa, whoa
They're telling me it's beautiful
I believe them but will I ever know
The world behind my wall?

Whoa, whoa
The sun will shine like never before
One day I will be ready to go
See the world behind my wall

Trains in the sky
Are traveling through fragments of time
They're taking me to parts of my mind
That no one can find

I'm ready to fall
I'm ready to crawl on my knees to know it all
I'm ready to heal, I'm ready to feel

Whoa, whoa
They're telling me it's beautiful
I believe them but will I ever know
The world behind my wall?

Whoa, whoa
The sun will shine like never before
One day I will be ready to go
See the world behind my wall

See the world behind my wall
See the world behind my wall
See the world behind my wall

I'm ready to fall
I'm ready to crawl on my knees to know it all
I'm ready to heal, I'm ready to feel

Take me there
(Whoa, whoa)
Take me there
Take me there

Whoa, whoa
They're telling me it's beautiful
I believe them but will I ever know
The world behind my wall?

Under Pressure - Queen and David Bowie

Today's song is Under Pressure. This particular version (the original!) was performed by Queen and David Bowie, and I like this version very much! Haha :D Right now I'm facing much pressure: Pressure to do well, pressure to behave well, pressure to pass my NAPFA (I have passed my five stations! Left the running ...) and more.

Oh well, here's today's song. Enjoy!

The Reason - Hoobastank

Today's song is The Reason by Hoobastank. Why is today's song The Reason? The reason is ... (Ok I know I'm a bit lame) Oh well just enjoy today's song. Good for singing at the top of your voice :D

An update for the recent weeks

It's been a long time since I last posted anything about my current life; the last time was almost a month ago! Ok so here are some of the highlights of the recent weeks:

#1. Speech Day
I still remember that my mood when going back to BP was that of a good mood. Then I was directed left right up down centre to take my attendance. That changed that mood to a worse one. Then came a pleasant surprise: the guest-of-honour is one of my (ex-)classmate's father! :D

Here's a photo of 4T2 '09. Wonder who everyone is looking at haha :D

#2. Rotary Flag Day
This was my first time taking part in a flag day, so I think I may be a bit noob ;) Initially I got myself a good location at AMK central, at the middle of a sheltered linkway. Then when more fund-collecters stationed themselves at both ends of the linkway, I found myself having no "business" at all. So I decided to relocate to another hawker centre (close to AJ) and I got brisk "business" there. I cleared all my stickers!

#3. Resilience workshop
The appetizers (first few activities) are interesting, and as for the main course, of the four high elements activities that we have planned to complete, I completed the rock climbing only. Even then, I could not reach the top :( Then it rained (that's why we couldn't do our pre-planned activity ...) Then our class had class dinner at Harbourfront ;) ...

#4. FOL (Festival of Life) program - Aesthetics workshop - Beatboxing!
The beatboxing program was thoroughly exciting and fun! My instructors have such chemistry, they can go host their own radio show and be like the Muttons :D And my group even won a mini competition and we got nice T-shirts designed by one of our instructor! That reminds me that they coincidentally wore the same outfit for the lesson!

#5. Circle Line Discovery
My favourite station is officially Dhoby Ghaut station (CCL), and second place is a tie between Mountbatten station and Paya Lebar station!

#6. I(nnovation) & E(nterprise) day
Some activities were interesting like cryptology (Maths) and Nanoscience (Physics) but others like advertisements (CL) are less interesting. Worst is GP - It's just like any other GP content lecture!!!

#7. AJ scholarship
I was notified that I got the scholarship through SMS ... Obviously I am very happy but with great power comes great responsibility so now I have pressure to be as good a role model for the rest of the student population as possible ... That means no slacking off tutorials :(

#8. My birthday
It passed by without much fanfare. The A square program was on and that meant I reached home at 10 pm. How to celebrate? Go home straight away go to Facebook and thank all the well-wishers, and then almost midnight liao. Then I had to rush to make birthday wishes before midnight arrives ...

#9. SYF Display Band Competition 2010

TK and PY gold, BP and WS silver, Bowen and Deyi gold with honours, YI and SF bronze

That was the results of the competition. Deyi got both best band and best drum major. Even though I feel that Bowen deserved those titles ... And BP could have fared much better ...

#10. AJ Interact Club EXCO interview
Snippets of my thoughts right after the interview:

Prison setting?
I described myself like sh*t
How must I show that I can balance those???
Haiz ... I think I might have messed up my EXCO interview ... It's all right if I don't get in right?

#11. An assault
There is irony here. Double irony in fact.
Irony 1: The day before, I was asked what if a member was assaulted by a resident? I answered I will console him/her then send him/her for some counseling. And now I'm assaulted.
Irony 2: On that day, free-writing topic was "Violence is the solution to ..." (nothing was my answer) and I'm faced with violence right in my face ...

So that's it for now. I may not be updating this blog as often as I would like to (every week), due to commitments such as PW. But do come back every now and then - I may have new posts!

Secrets - OneRepublic

Here's today's song. Enjoy!

AJ Scholarship - Successful!

I am now an AJ scholar!

- More to come on my birthday ;)

That's Not My Name - The Ting Tings

Here's today's song. I was inspired to put up this song as I was thinking about what defines me. What/Who am I? Well, (just an example) "hardcore mugger" isn't my name!

Anyway hope you like today's song!


PS: My birthday's coming up soon!